I can’t help but stare at her shapely bum as we clamber up a muddy path. The trees arch around us, like we’re going through some sort of tunnel. I feel a strange warmth about me, there’s this excitement at just being out here with her.
"Struggling to keep up, are you?" I tease, looking around at him. His jacket drapes off his shoulders, his hair has been ruffled yet he’s still strikingly handsome.
"I’m keeping watch for bears." I say after a pause, smiling a little. I stride towards her and wrap my arms around her, it’s hard to resist doing so. She holds me just as tight.
"I still can’t believe this, it’s crazy…" I smile, finding his lips.
"Crazy good?" I query, knowing full well what the answer is. She slides her hand down my cheek, every touch with her is one I’m still not ready for. I feel a bristling of electricity all over me as her fingers find my jaw, gently bringing my mouth to hers once more.
I slide my hand into his and lead him away, we walk side by side, hand in hand, both glancing at one another without meaning to, both smiling because we simply can’t help it.
"Don’t you like it, just being out here, being peaceful?"
"Red carpets, interviews, all I ever wanted to do was shut you up with a kiss." I smile.
"Shut me up?!"
"In a cute, British, romantic way… I never want you to really shut up, I mean I love hear-" She kisses me before giggling as our lips part, I can’t help but smile yet again.
"It’s not like you to be all awkward…"
I smile again but feel a little hollow inside my chest, a scratching doubt taking over me for a second.
I notice a little twitch on his face but try to put it to the back of my mind. I squeeze his hand a little tighter, I feel his fingers brush the top of my hand. I feel a little better.
"You do this often then, when you don’t need to film?" I ask, I suppose I haven’t really known her outside the rigours of filming and promo work - we were both shipped off after we finished Divergent. Her, to the Fault in Our Stars, me, to London Fields.
Each day was a day too much. All I could see when I shut my eyes was her smile, the way her eyes look when she smiles, the way she giggles when she smiles, the way everything seems not quite normal yet better, brilliant even, when she smiles.
"Yeah, I love it out here!" I tell him. He pulls me to a stop again, pulls me close to him and kisses my forehead.
I let my lips linger on her forehead, savouring the closeness I can feel with her, “I don’t want to let you down…” I whisper.
I wriggle free of him and stare into his eyes, “What do you mean?” I smile, brushing my fingers against his cheek.
"Well, just I want to get this right Shai."
I don’t say anything, I lead him onwards to where we find an overturned log. We sit on it, it rolls a little and it takes a second to get balanced. When satisfied it is, I look into his eyes again.
"Theo, why wouldn’t you get this right?"
I press my palm to her cheek, gently stroking it with my thumb. I smile a little. She smiles too, “Do you know why I didn’t make a move earlier?”
I shake my head. Sliding my hand on top of his.
"How can I be good enough for you?" I blurt out suddenly. It even takes me by surprise.
"Theo…" I kiss him. I kiss him hard. As if I’m angry at him for even think that and just need to let it out. "Theo, you’re one of the most genuine people I’ve ever met. You’re kind. You’re funny. You make me laugh. You protect me."
I kiss her gently, lingering there as long as I can, “I wanted to tell you, you know? When we wrapped actually. I played it out in my head. I’m almost 30 and I still piss myself worrying about doing things like that.”
"I don’t bite!" I grin.
"Well… You did a bit the other night."
I hit him and exaggerate a frown. Though I feel a warm buzz inside me, he’s seeming a little better.
"I love you Shai." I smile.
"I love you too Theo."
We kiss again, his hands brushing through my hair. We part, our foreheads pressed against one another, both smiling as we gaze into eachother’s eyes.